grande351

I'm not sure if you'll ever understand this. But i felt sorry for Emma seeing what i'd done to myself. It just felt like i'd destroyed our relationship by messing my face up. I still feel that way today and i just can't understand why i still do. I'd put Emma in a bad light on that post. When i was in hospital she was by my bedside everyday and some nights she would sleep in her car rather than going home to sleep. But when we got home i did notice a slight change in her. I guessed she only stayed with me til she was sure that i would be ok. I still have her phone number and so many times i've been tempted to call her. Just to hear her voice again. Then i keep telling myself to tear it up but i can't. I do miss her and i still think about her. I remember i got a big payout for the accident but how much is losing your girlfriend worth?. If i could have claimed for that. There wouldn't be enough money in the world.

That's ok grande351 i was getting similar reactions from friends when they found out. One of my mates wanted to slap her but i stopped him. Her name was Emma and we'd been dating for two years. She was very kind and caring like a girlfriend should be lol. She was such a lovely girl. Then the accident happened i work in a sawmill and when i was a machinist i usually operated the big bandsaw. But at the time another machinist was using it and got a 12x12 beam jammed in the saw due to the feed being too tight and i tried to save the sawblade from coming off. But it exploded under the pressure. sawtips and metal shards flew off the machine hitting me in the face. Tearing the left side of my face apart. Apparently i was lucky not lose an eye. It took about two months to fully recover from that extent of injuries. My company took pictures of the damaged bandsaw for insurance and claims purposes and originally they didn't want me to see them. But i wanted to and there was nothing left of the top halve of the machine. I was shocked and was thinking am i lucky to be alive?. One accident that will never happen again under new safety rules. Sorry i'm getting bit long winded here. Anyway i should have pointed out Emma had tears in her eyes when she told me she couldn't continue our relationship. I really should have pointed this out in my post. I'm just not very good with words. I bear no malice towards Emma i somehow blamed myself. Even today i still don't know why. Thanks for your concern and interest. Sorry it got a bit long winded.

Truly a fun evening! Rob is extremely talented but Danielle has a inner beauty that I believe a photograph will never capture. She is a precious soul.

No tigger lives in TN. I live in northern VA. But we are in western PA in the middle of a snow storm.

Tks. It has been snowing all day.

I have never been one for signing up to a single girl site, it goes stale very quickly I'll stick to FTV

No just been away for a while, I see the members area came in whilst I was away.

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I try to be strong and true in 2009. Is already now 2009.

Happy New Year Friend Grande351. And happiness to You.