i can not beleive someone could be unsatisfied... your site is the best. the chargebacks are just wrong in most cases. you know what you buy. your site could never be unsatisfying... it is something i always look forward to.

I suppose you could say the "unsatisfied" people are likely the inhibited ones with crappy sex lives who are just jealous. Sounds good to me, so why not, and let them go suck on some eggs for a while, the whiners, eh?

The smoothie sounds good. Myself, I usually go with something heavy on mango...now I'm thirsty.

As for the sleep study, I've been there, done that twice. In both cases with me, the study was performed by the SpectREM Sleep Center (associated with UNR's med school). Check in was something like 8 or 9 PM, check out something like 6 or 7 AM if I remember right. It takes a little while to have the electrodes attached to your head (1st time I went I had long hair; 2d, I'd buzz cut it, although not specifically for the study, but it did simply things for me & the tech). There was a shortish intro meeting with the physician, followed by a longer in-depth discussion with the doctor after the 1st study & another shortish follow-up with the doctor after the 2d study. I forget, but I think they two studies I was in were just a week or so apart. It was interesting, some of it I understood (thank you AP bio & that AA in behavioral science!) a lot was a bit over my head, but long story short what the doc prescribed for me seems to have helped with what ails me (at least I feel better about it, and that goes a long way in & of itself).

And speaking of sleep, now I'd dozy. Cheers, Ms D., and for what its worth, I'd never check the "unsatisfied" box if I canceled a subscription to your site. I quite honestly cannot believe anyone would truly be unsatisfied considering how much you give of yourself here in the free side, and how much more you must put into the premium side with costuming, the webcams, &c. Some people, I suppose, would never be satisfied, not with their left hand, let alone their right, eh? Wankers! ;)

When I was younger and didn't have nothing to do like no school or job to go to.I usually would sleep in and sleep 9-10 hrs.Of course if I slept to much back then I feel like "Dog poo" afterwards.
Now days when I'm off I get up after only 5-7 hrs of sleep and feel ok,but if I try pushing myself to sleep longer then I tend to get a headache.Funny part is when I have to work and get after 7 hrs of sleep then the next day I tend to fall doze off during work.

As for canceling or Chargeback on your site.I had cancel a few times when money was looking alittle tight not due to "unsatisfied".I also have to admit I did a few chargebacks myself ONLY due to the tactics of the sites.there were a few sites where they "Asked" you if you wanted to joined or subscribed to something to other things and you had to check yes to them,but in their cases you have to carefully look and "Uncheck" yes cause they would auto check you yes for everything unless you uncheck and I scan quickly through page after page trying to get through to the end without realizing I was getting "auto subscribe" to eveything under the sun.

I watched the last webcam show from June 1, and two things came to mind: 1- this site is $20.00, and if one lap dance that lasts 3 minutes is $20, the webcam show was worth at least $400.00 . So with 2 webcam shows a month, I don't see how anyone could resist becomming a member immediately. 2- Danielle kept mentioning that she loved 80's music, however if she just turned 22, I am amazed that she would enjoy that music so much. ...On reflection, that second thought should have stayed in my head. I must say that she does look so nice in that video that I wish I had been able to watch it live.

I will be scheduling the next webcam show pretty soon here so I really hope you will be able to join me during it. My mom actually got me into 80's music. When she would drive me to and from school and work when I was younger we would listen to one of the local radio stations that played a lot of 80's music.

Hmm...well waking up that early does not fly well with me. I shall have to tell them to let me sleep in :D.

I'm perfectly fine with people cancelling. I understand things happen. As long as they are happy with their "experience" on my website then I'm also happy. I've heard of websites charging you for several websites when you only signed up for one. It's definitely something that gives this business a bad reputation.

As for you meeting some brit in Vegas.Guess I should be happy for you,but have to admit I'm alittle envious for th guy cause I wasn't in his shoes. :)
As for the 3 day rule I had never followed it.I had gone out with a girl and had such a great time with her I called her the next day to tell her that.I even sent her a dozen roses with a note telling her that I had a great time with her.
In your case if I was that lucky SOB and manage to have you for 3 days and in my room.I would have taken you to the nearest jewelry store and gotten you an engagment ring.....ok at least a nice necklace so you would keep me in mind and I would have called you the next day after we had parted and screw the 3 day rule.
If the guy hadn't called you by now and you had told him about your site.There is a sad chance he might had been thinking he bedded a celebrity internet porn star and have a fun story to tell his buddies back in England and something to write to Penthouse letters about. Then since he a brit he may be more "reserved" and decided to take longer to call. In any case it always the guy who calls first IF he is interested in seeing the girl again..if not then it cause he thinking he had a great lay and moved on.

Yes I do believe in love at first sight or at least something close to it. and everyone has a soulmate It had happen to me once in the past and the girl was the prettiest girl in school and I felt like the luckest guy in the world cause she felt the same way about me.Unfortunely My mom end up moving us to Fort Worth (we was living in a small texas town) I went back to visit during school breaks due to my grandparents also lived in the same small town...but like so many Daddies when I went to go see her. Her dad always answered the door and told me she was busy.To this day I still think about her from time to time and wonder if we would have been married now with some great kids.

i like your pets cute dog and random cat in vet you wanted to steal but you didn't :)

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Miss, how about tan stockings and or pantyhose? Sheer - toe to waist!

Sometimes when a person starts reading motives into someone else's actions/inactions, it is a way of pushing aside one's own reasons for doing something (and not doing something counts as "doing something" here--its a choice). I know I've done that myself. Its a hard habit to break sometimes, and sometimes it isn't entirely broken, but being aware of what's going on in your own internal subtext helps, and it sounds like you know that already, and that is half the battle. What I've done when in a similar position is to try and distract myself, to get my mind off it (not always successful). Normally to de-stress, I'd go for a long walk, but, of course, that leaves me alone to dwell on my imagination. Lately (the past 6 years or so), I've tried some tai-chi which seems to help more quieting my mind. Each breath in & out clears the cobwebs and each time I do the chi ball thingy, I leave that negative energy behind, pushing it out the door or window. I know its all figurative, but in my mind it helps calm the synapses and gives me a little peace of mind and I'm able to shrug things off a little easier afterward. And sometimes you can just laugh, viz:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UJNRD...eature=related (Mr Happy, approx 5 mins in & Mme Wonderful approx 8:30 in)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PF1gy...eature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Ijwl...eature=related (cats approx 3 mins in)

You know, I was watching Teachers and it occurred to me that you do so much for your fans--some of it goes with the territory, some you do goes way beyond what any of us have a right to expect (although sometimes it appears some of use do make that assumption)--but who do you do it for? The website pays your bills, you have a creative outlet in both the performance and layout, but its still work, no? Re-reading your journal entries and letting things simmer for a few hours and I started to wonder if your desire to find someone, that Brit or someone else is you're need to find someone you can be yourself, not the persona you likely have to use here, and be yourself without someone imposing their image of you on. Moreover, who do you get to play with? I mean, sex replaces play, and we all need to play, no? I hope I'm not causing more trouble, just trying to understand myself. I do hope you find that someone you can play with, Ms D, let your hair down with, laugh and cry and dream with, and soon.

Aww...that's so sad. I don't know what I would do if I met my soul mate and couldn't be with him or her. I honestly don't know what is going on with the Brit...wether or not he is interested in me. I've also never really believe in dating rules. If a guy calls me the next day after meeting me then I know he is a keeper.

That cat was so friendly. It would've been a perfect cat for me.

Fabulous...I shall try to remember to do that for my next shoot.

Thanks sweetie, I also hope I can find someone to play with and love. Honestly I want to be with a character straight out of one of my books. Someone I can give my whole world to and who will do the same for me. Maybe that's why my past relationships have never worked. Maybe my subconscious is comparing my (ex)boyfriends to the guys in my books...hmm :rolleyes:.

A special quote for a special Englishman :

"The course of true love never did run smooth."
William Shakespeare

So, if want friendship, ask for friendship...but if you are in love, ask for love, and passion, and joy, and desire!

It's fabulous and wonderful to be in love, Danielle you are born to be surrounded by love, you are born for happiness!

Hi,
Sounds as if you had a very eventful Birthday trip to Vegas! Major crush/love wonderful and painful all at once and no good way to separate the two. Just have to endure and hope for the best outcome.

Sorry to hear about the charge backs. You’d think the credit card companies of the individuals would get wise after awhile. If they had any integrity they’d just cancel after a month.

Liked your make up!

Take care, persevere, but most of all stay Happy!

e83 :eek:

Unfortunately when it comes to porn the credit card companies don't care.

If I asked for love from him I think he would take off running. I love that quote though.

I don't understand The Brit at all. Meeting you and having a chance to start a relationship with you would be my dream come true. I'd never lie to you or cheat on you. And I'd allways have an ear or eye for you, 24/7.

To think I was on my way to Arizona last year already ... Why, oh, why didn't I keep my mouth shut at the CBP?!? (Kicking myself for the umpteenth time.)

I guess you just have to realize "what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas." As much as I hurt for you, Danielle, I think meeting anyone in Vegas, apparently hooking up with them, and then expecting a "relationship" to happen is rather naive.

Everyday, people lie or tell half truths to get what they want. Many men will lie through their teeth if they think sex is coming their way. Then.... there is Vegas!! It isn't called "Sin City" for no reason. Spontaneous hookups are the norm there. Give two good looking people some alcohol, some bikinis, some sun, some bare chests with good bodies, and "things happen." It might be good if you can just accept "one night stands" for what they are OR simply "say no" and save yourself the sadness of thinking a guy is possibly The One!

Just my two cents for what it's worth... .well, two cents!

From the june 14th Journal entry:
[sarcasm]C'mon, are you actually reading your own post?Neither do I. Really.So, you got yourself a third employment option after you resign the site or in the case Med school goes awry.
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I wish I could offer you some helpful relationship advice, but mine don't work out all that well. So anything that I said would probably just make things worse.:(

Glad the shoot with LB went well.

e83 :eek:

Hey sweetie,

I'm sitting here waiting for the Haily/Hayden vids to finish dling over on Robs site and I decided to take a look through your forum boards:) It amazes me how little we take the girls here for granted and how little we realize what their lives are like. I found your blog/journal quite entertaining and interesting. It constantly fascinates me how quickly a person can grow on you by just reading/seeing their life.

I just wanted to write and offer my support as I know you probably are feeling pretty crummy as of late from your brit guy. We all seek to fit in, to place, somewhere with someone and it's tough until you've found that spot. Lord knows how the world does it.

The brit guy either A: is being very mature if he's always traveling and knows he can't have anything or B: he isn't into you and he's just plain rude.

Sorry I"m being blunt but that's usually how I am. I generally hate dancing around topics and I like just being brutally honest. I hate relationships where the world has taught us we have to do this, this this this this, blah this do this. It's a hell of a lot easier just to dish it out and if he/she can't handle it well then you move on. Perhaps as Geezer put it, "What stays in Vegas, stays in Vegas" is correct and perhaps Mr. Brit was thinking that as well. His loss as you're a wonderful woman. From a perspective of a guy from reading your blog, he's given you all the signs (he might think he's being polite but he's really being rude) in saying he's not interested. Guys like that drive me nuts. If you are not interested in a girl say so! It saves a girl (like you) from being left hanging wondering where does he stand. There is no excuse for him not taking four or five minutes to write you a nice little line or message or whatever! Uncalled for! Ah I'd give my left eye for proper communication in relationships. If he wants to keep in contact with you he will. Let him do the leg work from now on. He's being a total (whats the English word for... oh ya) cad treating you like this. If he doesn't then you know he's not for you.

Okay all done bashing in-adept men and lack of communication:)

I find your open sexuality, your life, so hectic! But it amazes me what the capacity a human being can do and yet live so much! You truly are an amazing young woman with an aptitude for life. Never stop or change who you are.

One last thing. Chemistry is hard to find. Finding someone who will stay with you longer after the fireworks fade (the romance stage in a relationship) is tougher. If you can have that then you'll be set for life sweets.

Fond regards and don't give up!

J:)

P.S love the glasses look:)

Hi,

Oddly enough a similar thing happened to a friend of mine. She was a bartender at a local very upscale hotel. Jaguar came to southern Calif. To introduce the XK 8, shoot a commercial, and let the motor press drive the cars. They were here for about a week or ten days. My friend and one of the Brits got very close and hooked up a few times. She fell pretty hard for him and they promised to stay in touch when he left. Of course she never heard from him again. She swallowed her pride and wrote him but never heard back.

Maybe it’s best to just look at your trip to Vegas as a “Great Time” but now it’s back to the real world.

e83 :eek:

That makes me really sad. I did end up texting him yesterday. Dallas and I decided that he probably had a girlfriend and didn't tell me so I asked him about that in my text. He still hasn't got back to me...not sure if he ever will to be honest.

I really appreciate you taking the time to write all this to me. My dad also thinks the Brit is being a "cad". I don't believe in the whole "what happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas" and I think that people who do believe that are seriously fooling themselves. I'm trying to get over him but it's like you said I'm still left wondering where he stands and if he's even interested in a relationship. Oh well....I should have realized that it probably wasn't going to work when he told me he lives in England. I mean long distance relationships rarely work (though it did for my mom and dad.)

Hi again, "D". Sorry about the sarcasm mode earlier. But, about MacBrit, I think Geezer, Jhunter and e83 are right. Now sit tight, as the following is intensely off-the-box: have you considered giving the guy time... until you forget this stuff and move on with your life? Now (to him) you might be coming across as a "bloody-clingy-across-the-pond broad". Trust the guys here, men are the best figuring out how other men think. Now, Would you bother responding to a clingy guy?

I didn’t mean to imply that “What happens in Vegas …..” I don’t believe that is true at all. Whatever happens anywhere stays with you to some extent, good and bad.

e83 :eek:

Everyone starts off this life with the right (not the word I wanted by it'll do) to happiness. Then as we progress we're taught and we buy into the idea that we have to earn happiness, that we're not worthy of happiness, &c. We're taught that play is something you leave behind when you grow up; rather, its something that transforms. We all need that creative outlet that play offers, as well as that intimacy, that feeling of trust we share with a lover. Denying that creates a whole weight of negativity that weighs us down, crushing us when, or if, we let it. You deserve happiness, Ms D, and that includes finding that man or woman (or both) that makes your heart sing, your synapses fire, your toes curl and your stomach do somersaults. You deserve it, because you are a fine woman. Sarah deserves it, WhyYou deserves it, Tigger, Missy, Ugo, Rob, everyone, even yours truly. The question is, do we let ourselves have what we're entitled to? Will you let yourself find comfort in yourself, and thus give yourself permission to unlearn those habits that keep you from being happy with your lover? You're a giving woman, witness how much of yourself you put not only into modeling but also talking with the lot of us. You're a passionate woman--you put so much into your shoots and from what I understand your webcams. You have passions, some of which you let out for total strangers, so I have to ask, why not let them out with the person who turns your head, makes you tongue-tied and makes you stumble over your own feet? You'll find him or her (or them) in time. The catch is never so sweet if the hunt isn't worthwhile. Too esoteric or windy? Must be the Taco Bell I ate while reading TS Eliot. Sorry ;)

I suspect that most of us can remember a relationship that didn't work out. Linda and Beverly are couple of ladies that I let slip away somehow. Ah but it was fun while it lasted eventhough they broke my heart when they said goodbye.
I like Gale Garnett's philopsy in her song "We'll sing in the Sunshine"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZjQQmzEyVgA

Probably not.

BTW guys, I did find out that he had a girlfriend who he has been with for at least 3 years now and who he just took to the US for vacation. I'm not a "clingy" girl. I just don't like to be taken advantage of and left "high and dry" like he did to me. He lied to me about having a girlfriend. He made me feel like there was something there and even talked to me about coming to visit him in London.

But I'm already over him. I actually joined a very popular dating site (won't tell you guys which one though) because my mom suggested it.

Good on ya! Tally-ho! Back to the hunt. Besides, no matter what he sounded or looked like we know "all" Brits are a bunch of pasty blokes with receding hairlines (and chins), sticks for legs, ***-less, flat-footed, limp you-know-what, big eared, crooked buck toothed ninnies anyway (no offense to YAD, Mart, Wills, Harry or Ms D's step-dad--who will hopefully never read this--you are all, no doubt, are exceptions to the rule ;)).

LMAO...except for all my British fans of course :D...oh yeah and my dad...and my ancestors.

Thanks man, hey don't forget that we can't run our own country with out having to pass it by you Yank's first.

Sure ya can! You have a pair of (I think) exceptional people governing now on HM's behalf in Cameron & Clegg. Personally, I wish we could work a coalition along those lines here. And for what its worth, I had no idea you were in the UK--I guess there's another exception to the rule that all Englishmen are pasty, with teeth that point in all directions, &c., &c. FWIW, Enigma2, most of my ancestors were from Jolly Olde, I am pasty, I had buck teeth (thank you orthodontics & that diving accident when I was 9ish), &c., &c. ;)

And including all people involved with portaying Me & Co.

How dare you sir!!!, i'd ask you to step outside, but seeing as i'm among the exception list, i'll let you off just this once.:D