*** Danielle's Journal ***

[danielle_ftv]

Dec. 31, 2008
Happy New Years everyone. I just ate way too much and need to go to sleep because I have a really early photoshoot tomorrow. BTW, the photoshoot today was awesome. I'm trying to get the photographer to allow me to put the pictures on the contributing section.

[danielle_ftv]

Jan. 04, 2009
Rob just made fun of me because I said that I would lick a girl's butthole...but only if it is clean and shaven and if she gets off on that. So I finally got to log on and answer all my P.M.'s and post on the threads. I've been super busy lately...now I know what it's going to be like when I start school. I did two photoshoots...was supposed to do three but my alarm didn't go off. I'm sure you guys are going to really enjoy them. I also did another shoot for my site today. Rob was supposed to shoot these two sisters from Quebec, but they flaked out. Unfortunately I was also supposed to assist those shoots (behind the scenes) and if they were into girls we might have done a shoot for my site. How hot would that have been? A three girl update. I've never had a threesome with two girls. To bad they flaked too, because this oppurtunity just does not come around very often. But they probably partied to hard last night and decided not to go. Anyways it was super cold and cloudy today, so the shoot we did is probably going to look a little blah. Rob said that I looked like a little goth girl...which was not the look I was going for (I thought I looked sophisticated!)

My New Years was pretty tame. I could've gone to a party but decided not to because I was scared that I wouldn't get in (like what happened the other night.) Oh well...next New Years is going to be awesome! I'm pretty bummed because AVN Awards and Internext is this month, but I wasn't invited by anyone, and Rob doesn't like that type of stuff (I really don't want to go by myself). So instead of going and meeting my fellow workers, I'm going to be at home, planning for next year. Maybe next year I will pay a few hot girls to be my friends and go with me to the shows .

[danielle_ftv]

Jan. 10, 2009
Okay I am really confused right now....I know it is somebody's birthday, but when I went to double check that it was their birthday I couldn't find any post about it. So is it anybody's birthday today?

Yesterday I got to assist an FTV shoot (behind the scenes). The girl was super tall, the second tallest FTV girl that I've assisted. She was cute too...so we also did some stuff for my site. I'm sure you guys are going to enjoy her. I also did video of the photoshoot (and took a few pictures) and Rob commented on how steady I was with the camera, and how I got all the right angles. Being told that by a pro like him, is an amazing compliment (though I'll try not to let it go to my head ). I was also supposed to do a photoshoot with this one photographer, but he was driving in from San Diego, and got pulled over doing 110 mph, while talking to me about the shoot. So he ended up being pretty late...and we didn't start shooting until 7:30 at night. His photography style is very interesting because he is very, very meticulous about the lighting (it took an hour alone to get the lights set up just right.) But I'm sure I'm going to get some great pictures out of it...definitely different from what I have already. I'm pretty excited because I get a break from shooting for a week (which I really need, because I have a bunch of appointments to go to.)

My post on Alexa Loren's thread seems to have stirred up some trouble. Here's the thing...I'm not archenemies with her. We weren't fighting over some guy and there was no professional jealousy. I offered my friendship to her and she rudely (very rudely) turned it down. Despite what everyone thinks, I have a really hard time making friends. I have two female friends...one of them who I think is completely using me, the other...well we never hang out or do the things "friends" do together. So when I make myself vulnerable and offer my friendship to someone just to have them throw it back in my face, and laugh at me...it really hurts me. I think it was completely rude of Rob to make that post. He was there, he saw what happened, he knows about my "lack of female friends"....and then he makes a post like that.

[danielle_ftv]

Jan. 13, 2009
I'm not feeling very well right now, and actually had to cancel my workout session because of it . There are a bunch of evil mosquitos in my house and I can't figure out how there are getting in, for the life of me. I have probably about 12 mosquito bites on me (it's making me wonder if I have West Nile virus, and that's why I don't feel good.) I've realized that this forum is really wacky. Everytime I go onto the forum it doesn't show the new "unread" threads (the title is normally bold when it is unread), so I'm stuck going through every post to see if there is something new on it.

On a happier note, my sister is supposed to be going to the doctor's tomorrow and my mom thinks that they are probably going to induce her. She is due this Friday, but will probably give birth earlier. Her husband, unfortunately, has already been deployed back to Iraq...though he wasn't supposed to leave until after my sister gave birth.

I start school in a week. I'm pretty psyched. I've already contacted all of my teachers and introduced myself. It finally seems like my life is "falling into place."

One of my fantasies came true yesterday....I got to fool around with an Angelina Jolie look-a-like. I was in absolute heaven! She is an FTV girl, so you guys will be able to see her (by herself) pretty soon here. I'm sure you guys are going to love her, just as much as I did .

I got my hair cut and dyed today (trying to get it lighter...more towards my natural hair color.) It looks pretty good...but then it always looks good after you have them style it. Friday I have another photoshoot. Not sure what time it is, but hopefully it isn't too early, seeing as though I don't function well when I wake up early (case in point...today.) I had to go to my orthodontist (got chastised for not wearing my retainer.) For some reason, I decided it was a good idea to schedule the appointment for 8 in the morning. Now I know to a lot of people that this is a "normal" time to be awake, but for me...well it really isn't. I tried leaving voicemails and couldn't form sentences together. I almost feel asleep at the hair dryer when getting my hair done. And I almost got into an accident (though not by my fault...obviously the other person had to wake up early also .) Luckily for me, I really don't have to get up that early that often....though (yet again another smart move on my part) I've scheduled more appointments in the early morning. One of them I think I will have to get my blood drawn, so it should be pretty interesting seeing me driving around, sleep deprived with blood lose.

I decided that for the birthday video logs, I will start saying the actual birth dates (like May 29), that way if someone decides to lie about their birthday, then it won't be a "correct" birthday video log and will totally mess up people's diabolical plans. Personally I don't like liars and I don't really care for impatient people (though I do get impatient sometimes). It just amuses me that as soon as people see the birthday video logs, they decide that they need one immediately, so they have to lie to me about their birthdate. So not necessary people.

Tomorrow I am meeting one of my members.

[danielle_ftv]

Jan. 18, 2008
Good lord, I have been super busy lately. But finally I get a day "off"...so I plan on reading, taking baths, and eating junk food. I was taking a look at some of the other single girl sites out there and (not to be rude or anything) but I don't understand how girls think it's cute to act dumb. I saw several sites where the girl was acting super slutty and/or trashy and personally that does not turn me on at all...but FTV Rob says I'm used to "FTV ways"...in other words, the girls don't demean themselves. So maybe it's just me, but I love girls that are fun, and carefree, and have tons of personality...like Zeba Talking about Zeba, she actually returned for her second FTV "return" shoot. I got to pick her up and drop her off at the airport and do a little video of it (with out Rob helping me.) So we'll see what he thinks about my video skills when I don't have anyone guiding me. Anyhow, so assisting her shoot was an absolute blast. She is so full of energy (though we were all getting pretty tired, and our energy levels at the end were completely depleted.) I even got to "take advantage" of her a.k.a. fool around a bit. So I get to mark another thing off my kinky "to do list" (though I'm not telling you what we did ).

So my sister finally had her child. His name is Carter, and he is super cute! He looks very similar to my sister (which I guess is a good thing since she is the cuter one out of the parents .) Rob told me not to do anymore birthday video logs, so to all of you who's birthdays are coming up, I apologize. I got to meet one of my members, for the first time. We ended up going out to dinenr at this really nice restaraunt. And he also got me a bottle of port wine. He was very much the gentleman, and was very courteous (and no we didn't do anything, for those of you who are having naughty thoughts.) Now maybe you guys will be less afraid to approach me in public I start school on Tuesday. I'm pretty excited about it. My personal trainer is also pretty excited because two of the classes I am taking, he considers "cardio"....he has been bugging me to do more cardio. So now I will be working out about five times a week.

I'm thinking about doing a two week to a month long trip around the country, when school ends, in May. I would like to visit my different members around the US and go to some of the places I've always wanted to visit (like Washington DC.) I think it would be an awesome way to get some great updates, including candids. I guess my only problem would be that I would need Rob to go with me (so he could do film and photo) but getting him away from FTV will be incredibly difficult. So I may end up just having to hire a videographer/photographer to travel with me everywhere....maybe Zeba, since she does photo/video for other adult sites.

In a week I will be taking off for Maui. It's pretty exciting and I'm super thrilled about shooting, but it's definitely not a vacation. I will most likely be shooting with other photographers while I am there. Also if I have any members that live or are going to travel to Maui during the 26th to the 30th, I would love to meet you.

[danielle_ftv]

Jan. 23, 2008
So I've been pretty stressed lately (and it seems like most of the people in my life aren't making it any better.) I just started school this last week, which was great, but getting back into the swing of things is kind of difficult. I'm already making new friends in my classes, which is really exciting for me, considering how difficult it is for me to make friends.

I haven't checked my private messages in about five days but I already have over 35 P.M's. Now I love getting private messages from everyone, but I don't like getting five private messages from the same person....in two days. Please realize that I am super, super busy (and will be getting even busier since it seems like I will be taking over the website editing) and I don't have enough time to read and answer ten different messages from the same person. Sorry if that sounded rude at all.

My teachers and classes seem pretty fun. My self defense class is very difficult, mainly because I don't learn athletic/dance stuff very well when I am in a group setting (much better one on one.) So for awhile during the class I was getting very frustrated, and was thinking about dropping out. But I asked the instructor if they have tutors and he actually told me that he does private lessons. So I think that if I go that route, and hire him to instruct me, then the self defense class will go a lot easier for me. Same goes with the Italian class...it looks like I will probably end up having to get a tutor for that class also. I've realized that online classes are some of the hardest classes you can take. I don't think I'm very good at time management sometimes (though I'm working on it)....so trying to carve out time for online courses is really difficult.

So anyways I have a lot of errands to run, P.M.'s to check/answer, and homework to do. Got to go

[danielle_ftv]

Jan. 28, 2009
We are in Maui and the weather SUCKS! We were supposed to shoot the "volcano" shoot that both Lia and Alison did when they were here, but it won't stop raining. Yesterday it also rained so we ended up doing a rain shoot, which I think is going to turn out really well. I had a next door neighbor that actually walked out on his balcony (which is in perfect view of mine) while I was completely naked. I had to scurry back inside (not sure if he saw or not though...how embarassing.) Then as soon as I was ready to start shooting again, a hotel worker passed by me (while I was naked) on his little golf cart. At least we got the rest of the shoot done without anybody else spying me...or else if they did I didn't notice.

So the internet connection sucks here. Rob was complaining non-stop for awhile there about it, but I think he is kind of happy now since he doesn't have to check emails for about a week (kind of gives him a small break.) The food is so freaking expensive here...actually everything is incredibly expensive here. I ordered a smoothie last night ($8) thinking it was going to be fairly large....what a joke! The smoothie was about half the size of a normal glass and I didn't even get to drink it. For some reason it ended up bursting in my hand (no I didn't get cut.) But I'm still managing to eat all right, just not drinking as much as I normally do, since drinks are 4 times what they normally cost.

We've already done three updates/shoots. One here at the hotel (it was kind of a random shoot, not really planned.) Another was the rain one, and the other was at the beach. It was so funny though...when we got there we were scoping out the location and the people around us, and there was this couple who were completely naked, just laying around sunbathing and swimming. Talk about being comfortable with public nudity. I mean, it was not a nude beach! and there were people walking around everywhere. I guess it made me feel a little more comfortable being naked (but not much.) Funny thing is I think people would've stared more at a naked woman and man, but not really, everyone just kind of took it in stride. Now when I got naked, boy was I getting stares...and I think a few laughs (but that was from these two larger females.)

So tomorrow, we will most likely be doing the volcano shoot. I'm hoping to do four more shoots before we have to leave on Saturday (including the two volcano shoots.) I'm also hoping to do a few candid videos. I feel kind of stupid, because I was planning on editing a lot of the stuff while I was here, but I completely forgot my USB cables for the cameras. The birds here are very pretty, but kind of aggressive. They kept on stealing peoples food when the people would walk away from the table. Some of the birds would even steal food when there were people sitting right at the table. My sister should be arriving in Phoenix either before I get back or a few days after. It should be quiet interesting because she is driving down with my grandpa and grandma, so my mom's house is going to be super full for a week. But it should be nice having my grandma around. My mom wants me to take her on a "girls day out" type of thing, so I will probably take her to get manis/pedis and lunch.

I've realized why I don't like going someplace and paying for my nails to get done. I got my nails done on Saturday, and they are already chipping and looking like crap. I can't stand when people don't do a good job, and especially when you are paying good money for it. My first webcam session will be this week on Friday at noon (12 PM) Arizona time (which is actually 9 AM Maui time.) Hope this doesn't confuse anyone.